Crazy Kid #1 (he looks innocent, don't let it fool you- he's wild already)
VERY crazy kid #2 (this photo is deceiving. Extremely deceiving.)
Having two kids is more difficult in all of the obvious ways- however what I find the most challenging is trying to put aside the mom guilt I feel for not being constantly present for my daughter. I can handle the sleepless nights (and they are exactly that- sleepless. My daughter sleeps with us and wakes every time Jack wakes to eat. She literally pops up and wants to help change him at 2am. Weird)
I can handle the changing of 2 kids in diapers (although Sophie is starting to show interest in potty training so we will work on that this summer- hot weather, no pants, no problem right?)
I can handle the kid on the boob while the other is tugging at my feet. But what's reallllly hard is sending Sophie to gymnastics with Daddy because Jack is napping. Or not going to the park 5x a week because it's too hot for Jack.
The little girl above was my sidekick and it's shifted, for obvious reasons.
On the bright side she spends a lot of time with other people, but I miss her. I really, really miss her!
I look at her some times and just sigh. She is truly amazing and gifted, confident and beautiful.
I tell her 3 things every morning about herself, to give her that confidence and she repeats those things to her dolls and teddy bears throughout the day. I know she hears me and feels my love for her.
She loves her brother so much. She is gentle and aware of his needs and they will share a special bond as he gets older that makes me so proud. She's a rare wonder, a empathetic and caring individual at such a young age.
(telling secrets already!)
My husband is back at work. Summer is here and the hot weather has joined us!
Sophie has swim lessons (she swam BY HERSELF today!) gymnastics and summer school.
No vacations are in the works (wahhhhh!)
My mom comes over once a week and it's a godsend. She fills up our fridge with brown rice and tofu (I'm determined to lose the 80 lbs I gained! I have 39 more to go lol) and entertains Sophie for the entire day. Sometimes she even throws in a shopping trip :)
Life is good. Different, but good.